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Go Cry in the Car
Come back tomorrow, it will get better.
Living this was my choice, reading about it is yours.
Please believe me when I say that what is normalized for me is considered war crimes in civilized places. There could be anything written here, but depending on the subject there is likely rough language, irreverent humor, and horrific circumstances described - sometimes in great detail.
If that is not for you it's ok, you don't have to read it.
Ask me for the latest pictures of Matilda the Adventure Dog instead.


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For a long time, I was not a regular reader of EMS-related titles, nor did I tend to watch the movies. I was not inspired to service by...
Tracey Loscar
Aug 27, 20235 min read
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Degrees of Separation
I typically do not write about 9/11. In recent years, I even make an effort to avoid media for the span of 24 hours. When society rolls...
Tracey Loscar
Aug 6, 20236 min read
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A Tale of Two Medics
Consider two conversations today. Both are new paramedics, under two years. Both are speaking to their tour supervisor. Two different...
Tracey Loscar
Aug 6, 20234 min read
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What's in a Name?
"What's in a name? That which we call a rose by any other name would smell as sweet." ~ William Shakespeare, Romeo and Juliet This is my...
Tracey Loscar
Aug 6, 20234 min read
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The House
The air remains heavy and hot, despite the fact that the sun has long since disappeared. Summer nights in the south aren't so much a...
Tracey Loscar
Aug 6, 20234 min read
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A Karma Carol
‘Twas the night before last, and there at the counter. right in the deli, a Karmic encounter. Hot, sweaty, and tired, a frazzled mess of...
Tracey Loscar
Aug 6, 20233 min read
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City of Ghosts
In the bygone era of life without GPS or smartphones (or cell phones for that matter), one actually had to learn how to navigate the...
Tracey Loscar
Aug 6, 20234 min read
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Sea of Blue
A lifetime ago, when I was brand new - entering a fledgling profession in an impossible environment, I walked into a sea of blue....
Tracey Loscar
Aug 6, 20236 min read
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Evolution of a Frequent Flyer
An open letter to the volunteer fire department that responds to my mother's house: I am sorry that you had to respond to my mother's...
Tracey Loscar
Aug 6, 20236 min read
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My Hands (by Sarah Crellin)
(Sarah is a Renaissance woman who I am proud to know as both a friend and peer for my entire career. I am honored to share this with you,...
Tracey Loscar
Aug 6, 20232 min read
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People Lived Here
The colorful noise scrolled by on the screen, humor and politics, and useless information chattering in my eyes as I worked on my first...
Tracey Loscar
Aug 6, 20237 min read
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A Burden Shared
She stood in the doorway, fidgeting with a sheaf of papers in her hand and looking anywhere but at me. "What's up?" Taking a deep breath...
Tracey Loscar
Aug 6, 20233 min read
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Farewell Commander
"O Captain! my Captain! our fearful trip is done, The ship has weather’d every rack, the prize we sought is won" (Walt Whitman) I...
Tracey Loscar
Aug 6, 20233 min read
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Collateral Damage
This is about the night that a Very Bad Thing happened to Sara. I am not Sara. It was a nondescript night, any one of a thousand shifts....
Tracey Loscar
Aug 6, 20237 min read
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Turn Left at the Turkey
Stepping out of the vehicle, my breath immediately fogs. The first thing I notice is the noise, there are goats bleating loudly from a...
Tracey Loscar
Aug 6, 20235 min read
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Broken Brand
Branding. Brands belong on asses. Brand implies ownership, a mark seared on the skin. In order to claim your ass I have to hurt you...
Tracey Loscar
Aug 6, 20233 min read
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Chainsaw
One of the redeemable qualities of the human race is the infinite range of responses that it can have to a crisis. Spend any time working...
Tracey Loscar
Aug 6, 20234 min read
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Mother's Day (Boycott)
My relationship with Mother's Day is "complicated." Like so many other holidays, it feels pushed and corrupted over time into a...
Tracey Loscar
Aug 6, 20234 min read
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The Godfather
It is October. No, not this one, but an October from thirty years ago. It is 1988 and I just started my first full-time assignment -- EMS...
Tracey Loscar
Aug 6, 20232 min read
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Why does there *need* to be a Santa Claus.
In everyone's lives adversity tramples through. Sometimes there's a lull and relative quiet and then in the space of as little as a few...
Tracey Loscar
Aug 6, 20234 min read
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